currently reading - stopped with the Frida biography for now - trying to tackle the VanDyck reading on International News.

currently listening to - "ThankU" (Alanis), "Kind and Generous" (Natalie Merchant) and "Passionate Kisses" (Mary Chapin Carpenter) playing over and over. Thank goodness for my understanding roomie.

job status - am completely jazzed about LOC.

03/27/2002

Frequently Asked Questions (in response to hearing about my and the exbf's breakup)

I've told enough people about this to get an idea of common responses. This was from talking to family (mom, stepfather, brother/ sister in law)

Q: What?
A: The first question they usually ask. It may be because its unexpected or maybe because the times I've brought it up it was without warning, I'm not sure. But the answer - yes, we're over.

Q: Did you suspect / Were you surprised?
A: I don't know. It is one thing to know everything isn't perfect, another to think its over.

Q: You still planning on moving back to DC?
A: Of course. He was a good thing about moving back to DC but not the only reason. I have a lot of old friends there, I miss living on the East Coast, I (hopefully hopefully) have a kick ass job, etc.

Q: But you already made it through so much time away...
A: Yes. But I suspect but my moving back in a couple of months was what brought it on for him.

Q: How are you doing?
A: Okay. Sad. Angry. The worst part isn't losing what I had now but losing what I thought it might be. At the same time, though, I do feel really good. I'm sure this is the right thing, it just got to the point where we couldn't get what we wanted anymore. It feels good to be more comfortable ending it than staying in it. That's something I wouldn't have been able to do a couple of years ago.

Q: Are you really okay?
A: Yes. But thanks for making sure.

Q: Well, what happened?
A: I don't really want to go in to it... suffice to say I'm not a bad person, he's not really a bad person, and this is really really really for the best.

Q: Wow.
A: Not a question, but that tended to come about here.

Q: Anything I can do?
A: Be available to listen. Remind me that its okay I'm not with someone now, that there are other great someones out there for me. Allow me to remember good times. Help me snap out of it when I get sad. Let me not talk about it. And you don't need to hate him, but I don't need to be forced into seeing him.

So that's about it. Your mileage may vary - again those are the questions from my family.

But those are the ones I'm answering for now. I'm trying to think Julian of Norwich "All will be well and all will be well and the manner of it all will be well." And it will be.

events of the day - came back from spending the night at David and Heather's - rented a load of movies and saw "Don't Say a Word", "Bridget Jones's Diary", "Josie and the Pussycats", "Legally Blonde". Just needed to no think.

plans for tonight - going up to SS the SS's folks to watch "West Wing".

and tomorrow - All day NewsHound / studying.