Listening: "Who's Line is it Anyway?"
Reading (perhaps quality): The Post
Reading (definitely pulp): "Needful
Things" by Stephen King
Drinking: water.
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August 6, 2002
10:26 pm
Feeling rather snakey snarkey the last
couple of days. Don't know if it's having to go back to work (I do love
my job but love vacation as well), missing my family (talked to dad
and Carmen and they were talking about how everyone except me was over
on Sunday) or what.
I do suspect that a lot of it is the
continuing realization that all this is for real. Working again, being
back in DC, starting over, being older.
As for the big kahunas of life
- house, career, kids, stability in all shapes and forms... makes me
think of a line from the preface of Sandra Cisneros' "My Wicked
Wicked Ways" where she talks about "wanting and not wanting".
Of course I want to be a responsible grown up. But its friggin scary.
So used to thinking of my parents or my older sibs in that way, with
me in some sort of teenage-college-early-adult-and-therefore-not-responsible
limbo. I'm horrible with birthdays, not unfamiliar with late fees, rarely
get in my quota of five fruits and vegetables a day, and forget about
drinking eight glasses of water. I don't own a car, have a student loans
(but no credit card debts), am currently using someone else's furniture
(thank you again, D!), have a tv on a chair
and 5 pairs of strappy black sandals. I don't know what I thought being
an adult would be like, but what it is feels rather messy and anticlimactic.
But enough of being pissy. All in all,
all really is good. Especially whenever I stop brooding and start being.
Lulu's put the down payment on her guitar
and I need to go do the same. Can't believe we're really going to take
classes. Have wanted to play for a long time (ever since I started falling
for guys in rock bands I've wanted to be in one) and I know it'll be
tough but I would like to learn how to play, to get good enough to enjoy
playing.
Took a Fireworks course today - haven't
really used the program before so it was great to actually learn it
instead of stabbing around trying to make things work. Made my snakey
graphic and a few others for fun, but it should be helpful for work
as well.
Am trying to actually get to bed at a decent time since waking up this
week has been a painful process. Hasta manana, then.
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Doing (life and related tasks): catching
up at work.
Doing (crafty stuff): continuing with my
collage walls, maybe making some curtains?
Wanting: Nothing much.
Anticipating: getting all Joni Mitchell
and/or Liz Phair with the guitar.
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